This very early morning run started off with an inky black-blue night so startlingly clear that the waning Crescent moon and stars shown white-bright, which made me realize how lucky I am not to be in Chicago with its sky, clotted with juandiced-orange clouds that don’t so much hang in the sky as appear stuck like chewing gum underneath a school desk.
On the trail that I jog, the frogs had started moving but hadn’t quite warmed up enough to make any quick jumps so they waited on the sides of the trail, like mute yet encouraging spectators that only asked not to be squished by an errant sneaker.
My run takes me past several horse pastures and barns. Either I find the horses are way out in the pasture or they are wedged right into the corner of the fence where I have to run by. I don’t know what to make of it or what they make of me. I do know that, generally, horses always seem way more quiet and stealthy than anything that big should reasonably be. These horses remind me of people you can have a cup of coffee with, sitting in some dingy dinner at 4:30 in the morning, feeling neither compelled to talk or to attentively listen but just sit and feel the moment when it’s not quite the end of another day nor the beginning of a new one. (I know this moment well but it wasn’t spent in Hemingway-esque coffee dives, but learned during residency when you hit three in the morning and can feel—or rather hope—things are going to slow down but invariably your team is called down to the ER again for yet another admission and so another interminable hour or so is spent in purgatory and there is nothing to do, but hope that even the ER residents are getting tired at four in the morning and have finally decided to hold admissions for the fresh medical teams coming in the morning, which really means that you can sit for a few moments and let the sticky sweat from a long night of constant motion finally cool and congeal on you, before your team forms up for morning rounds and do the rest of the day’s work in order to get ready to present to your attending in the afternoon, after they have finished their own clinics. If you are lucky, you will round for only two hours and then walk out into the evening air around seven and find your car and drive very intently and carefully and not crash your car into your apartment’s assigned parking spot and go up and open your door and peel off your scrubs, eat and luxuriate in a hot shower before having to do it again in a few days.)
And later in the morning, driving to work, I make a mental note that Carolina Blue is actually the color of the sky here. (Really. When I first got here I kept thinking there was something wrong with my eyes because the blue seemed technicolor-ed and I then realized that most people here didn’t notice or weren’t particular impressed, because they’d grown up with it all their lives) and Carolina Blue’s accompanying white color matches the starched-white cumulus clouds (think puffy cotton clouds that are ridiculously puffy. So piled on that sometimes these clouds seem to be a put-on, mocking the idea of a puffy clouds, sort of like “My Little Pony” subverts the idea of cute ponies by being impossibly more cute, ie I’d put Carolina clouds up against any other state’s clouds [even Indiana’s, mom] and it’d just be no contest.)
I had a point to this. I think. It’s been a long week for me and a lot of people I know. Oh well, enjoy the picture.